after knowing the facts last night, i felt like a fool. too much lies. too much guessing. i dunno when you'll still lie to me. not that i dun trust you. is that you made me cant trust you. how many lies have you say?
"Oh, look what you've done
You've made a fool of everyone
Oh well, it seems like such fun
Until you lose what you had won"
song by Jet. Look What You've Done. i think this song shld suit you bahs.
not only me who is the victim. she is another person. SHIRLEY. i hope things can be made clear as soon as possible. stop lying anymore. it doesn't make things look good. i hope there's no more lies between both of us. every single sec, i need to guess. wondering if it's the truth. sometimes when you are saying the truth but i doubt ur words. it makes my heart aches. i believe you once & again. but you broke my heart after 1 and another. after our break up, you just went steady with another girl the next day. does it prove anything? after doing so many things, then you regretted. isnt it too late? you 2 timer both of us. you made us feel like a fool. i felt so cheated. i realised the change in you. you dun care abt other's feeling. you do what you like. you dun see the consequences.
i know you're a helpless position. i know. you need to bear all the consequences. abt shirley, she will become a lesbian after your break up with her. it's her life afterall. she wont thank you for being such a responsible man. so what for? unless you care abt her. imagine me having to tell you the same thing. will you still give me time to break with him? i think probably you'll kill him straight away.
i couldn't start my hw bcos' of this matter. i used up all my time thinking abt this. i'll be able to concentrate once you settled everything. so i REALLY hope you'll settle it fast. after your break up with her, leave her as far as possible. i'm sure in the factory, you made quite a lot of friends. hang out with a grp of friends. not only with a girl. if not, soon, feelings will developed and i dun wan that to happen. call me if you feel like it. i will still concentrate on my studies. just make sure that you'll be single the year through. i'll not have to worry anymore. i know it's difficult for you. sorry. cos' i really dun wanna lose you. i'm really afraid to lose you.
pardon me. i'm too selfish towards love. cos' i dun wanna share you with someone else. sorry to stressed you up. aix. i dun wan it this way. i really dun wan. i hope you can understand. if you have anything to say, post it out too. treat this as a diary between me & you. =) i love you, my boy. always my boy.
